Normality. Will things ever be the same again?

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Normality. Will things ever be the same again?My wife Karen and I were talking about the situation we are all living in at this strange time. We talked about how it’s affecting us at present and how it could affect us in the future. It was a deep and very meaningful conversation that had us both feeling quite down for a while. We decided in the beginning that we would stay away from everyone, family, friends and those special friends that we meet up with on a regular basis. It made sense, it would be hard on us but it made sense. We’ve always been brutally honest with each other and this whole situation we’re living in has started to take it’s toll on us both. Our sex life, until two weeks ago, was still very active and we were still playing full on at least twice a week. But the fun has stopped for now, all we seem to do is snap at each other and the strain of this lockdown is driving us apart. Karen admitted that she was finding it hard, she missed everyone and most of all she was missing the lifestyle that we had both enjoyed for most of our relationship. I too was feeling the same but staying strong was the only way through this terrible time.A couple of weeks ago I was using the laptop, I logged into a fetish site that we use from time aksaray escort bayan to time, and found that karen had set up a meeting with a couple on the other side of the city. There are no words to describe the anger I felt at that moment in time. I was livid. How dare she put us in danger like this. I remained calm and hoped that she’d see sense and cancel her meeting with this stupid and irresponsible couple. All caution, it seemed, had been thrown to the wind when she told me she was going shopping. I told her I’d come along and she insisted that she go alone. I never have and never would stop karen from doing anything and so I kept quiet as she closed the door, climbed into the car and drove off.For four hours I paced the house, the anger coming and going, just wondering what the fuck was going on. Why would she do this to me? I was just about to start making myself a sandwich, I hadn’t eaten the whole day with worry but felt like I had to force something into my grumbling stomach. Then I heard the car pull into the driveway. In the midst of all the worry I’d forgot that she said she was going shopping and I was surprised when she came in clutching a few bags for the supermarket. I helped her unpack the bags, both of escort aksaray us silent with not a word passing between us for a while. I asked why it had taken her so long at the supermarket and she blamed it on the massive line of people waiting to get in on a Friday afternoon. If I hadn’t seen the exchange of messages on the laptop I might have believed her. That she lied to me made me furious. I kept the anger at bay as getting angry and unreasonable has never been my thing, I don’t like the lack of control that comes with anger.Karen declined my offer of dinner and went off to have a bath. I brought the laptop over and sat it on the coffee table in front of the couch. I went to the website and opened the mails. I read through the conversation and still couldn’t believe the stupidity. An hour passed and when karen finally came down to join me in the living room I turned the laptop to her and asked her why. She said nothing at first and then went on to tell me that she couldn’t handle it any more. Her needs and desires had got the better of her and she knew I would not approve of such a move at these times, so she went behind my back, something she swears she’s never done before and I believe her, she’s never had to go off on aksaray escort her own.”It was stupid, but worth it,” she told me and went on to describe the short time she spent with the couple. She then told me that it would not happen again and that if she had those feelings to break out again that she’d talk to me about it. Now I feel like I’m constantly watching her, I even found myself trawling through her phone when she was asleep. I’ve never felt like this in my life and it’s driving me mad. She seems to think that things have gone back to normal between us, but I just can’t relax, I can’t sleep or settle. Every time she goes out for a walk, wants to go shopping, I’m on the phone to her making up some excuse as to why I’ve called her. It’s not like me to feel like this and i’m not dealing with it very well.I know there will be a countless amount of people out there that feel the same as my wife and will be willing to take a chance to get their kicks, but life won’t just go back to the way it was any time soon and caution must be adopted by all. We all have desires and I know it’s not easy at this time, but we must stay safe and think about our actions, the safety of ourselves and others before going out to meet up with others and indulging in any kind of sexual relations.Stay safe people. Life will resume at some point and then maybe we can all get back to doing the things we like, but for now we must adhere to the rules and look after one another. It’s hard but we’ll get through this!

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