Max and Rosie Pt. 1

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The shrill sound of the tea kettle shattered Max’s reverie. He was remembering when he and Rosie met thirty-eight years ago. Sighing deeply, he looked down at the yellow mug and remembered the vision of the two of them rowing down the Charles River that May morning, the night after their first date, the first of many, before shocking everyone they knew by getting married one April weekend while still in their senior year of college. He had been attending Harvard and she was at Radcliffe, a few years after the two colleges had begun sharing courses. He often remembered Rosie walking in on the first day of their Chaucer course. She stood at the doorway and looked around the crowded room for a seat. He was immediately captivated by her pretty, oval-shaped face, high cheekbones and the serious intensity in her eyes as she scanned the crowded room, then the delighted, almost childlike smile when she saw the empty chair next to him. She’d asked if he minded her sitting there, and he turned and looked around the room. “Well, there aren’t any other seats in the room, so I guess it’s okay.” He could still see her that day with her thick, bushy, brown hair and horn-rimmed glasses, an appearance so unlike most of the other women with their long straight hair, tailored clothes, aristocratic air, who looked as if they had just stepped out of an advertisement in Seventeen or Glamour. She wore a long flowery skirt that came below her knees and a baggy green turtleneck sweater, several rows of a beaded necklace and sandals. She looked, more bohemian than Ivy. When she sat down next to him, his heart leaped in a way that surprised him, having no idea at the time where that moment would lead. Max poured the water into Rosie’s yellow mug, then glanced over at her as she sat at the kitchen table, staring out the window, her chin resting on her hand. What is she thinking about? What is she trying to remember? Dipping the Earl Grey teabag into the mug, he watched the water turn bronze-colored, knowing how strong she liked her tea and how long the bag had to steep before it was just right. Stirring in a little honey, he heard the little ping of the toaster-oven and noticed the orange light go out, then reached for the rye toast Rosie loved. He placed it on the plate with the blue lily enameled in the center. He made sure he served the rye toast on the same plate every time because of the way it made her smile. She always said, “Ah, my favorite dish.” He liked it when she remembered little things like that. He had brought out the raspberry jam and now he spread it on the toast. This was their four o’clock ritual—tea and rye toast with raspberry jam. They would sit at their round oak kitchen table and watch the blue jays, yellow-headed finches and occasionally, doves, come to the feeder. He loved the way the birds made her smile as they watched quietly. “Oh, look,” she’d say, “what’s the name of that bird?” Max could see by her squinting eyes she was straining to remember, trying to form the words, but they wouldn’t come through her pursed lips. “That’s a dove.” “Dove, yes, that’s it, a dove.” Her eyes widened as she nodded. A small smile formed on her lips then became a laugh. Her smile still warmed his heart and her eyes still had that twinkle. “Drink your tea before it gets too cold, dear,” he said, straightening the shawl on her shoulder. “Oh, yes, the tea, thank you.” She looked down at her mug then smiled at Max. “You take such good care of me,” she said, reaching for his hand, which he took and gently kissed her fingers. They looked at each other and smiled. She picked up a piece of toast and took a bite, leaving a speck of raspberry jam on her lower lip. Max took a paper napkin from the holder on the table and reached over to wipe the speck away. “Oh, thank you, dear,” she said. “This jam is so delicious. What kind is it?” “Raspberry, it’s your favorite.” “Raspberry, yes, raspberry, my favorite.” Max looked at his wife as she took another bite of toast. She seemed so fragile in the late afternoon sunlight, but he loved how the sun made her hair look silver, and how it felt like his heart was melting when he saw how beautiful she looked sipping her tea. He thought back to the first time they went for coffee after the Chaucer class. It was a month or so into the course before Max had the nerve and opportunity to ask her because ordinarily, as soon as the lecture was over, Rosie closed her notebook, picked up the heavy Complete Chaucer textbook, and rushed out of the class, usually nodding goodbye to him. Finally, he had the nerve to ask her if she’d like to have a cup of coffee with him and so, sitting over coffee at the Coffee Nook Cafe, they had their first conversation. Max learned she was from Philadelphia, was top in her class at Girls’ High and had won a full scholarship. This was the only way she could have ever attended Radcliffe since her father was a tailor for a dress manufacturer, her mother a part-time librarian. She loved acting and had performed in a number of plays in college and was part of The Abbey Players, an amateur theater company. Max was dazzled by the way she suddenly started reciting the lines Erenköy escort bayan of the nurse in Romeo and Juliet, how she became transformed before his eyes as she became the character. Their conversation flowed from topic to topic, an endless number of stories from their lives, their thoughts on everything. She made him laugh by mimicking different people when she told stories, and he marveled at how animated, alive and funny she was. After sitting there for three and half hours, he was more certain then ever that what he’d sensed when he first saw her walk into the class and sit next to him, was correct. Rosie was an amazing person and he was completely captivated by her. “Oh, aren’t those flowers beautiful?” she asked, looking out the window at the daffodils and tulips she’d planted over the years. “What kind are they? It’s on the tip of my tongue,” she added, moving forward so she could see the whole row of them by the fence. “The yellow ones are daffodils and the red and white ones are tulips,” Max told her. “Oh, yes, daffodils,” she repeated. “What day is it?” she asked picking up her cup and taking a sip. “It’s Thursday,” Max answered, seeing her nod. “Leah called earlier to see how you were.” “Leah? Who’s Leah? That name sounds familiar.” “She’s our daughter,” Max answered, suddenly remembering the time they had been in an elevator, going to see Santa Claus, and a large black man stepped in and Leah, who was three, said, “Mommy, I don’t like black people,” and Rosie said, “Well, you picked a hell of a time to tell me,” which made the black man laugh. Max was always amazed by how quick Rosie’s mind was, how she made their friends laugh when they came over for dinner. Rosie was the funniest and most intelligent person he had ever known and seeing her brilliant mind withering into the fog of Alzheimer’s right before his eyes was unbearable. When Rosie finished her toast, she took a sip of her tea and looked at Max. “That was good.” She sighed and reached over and took his hand, “You’re a nice man.” “Thank you, dear, you’re a wonderful woman,” Max said, putting his hand on hers, taking it and giving it a little squeeze. “You’ve made me very happy.” “I have?” She looked at him as if trying to understand what he said. “Well, that’s nice of you to say,” she added. “I like how you look at me. You seem like such a kind man.” Max nodded, smiled and moved her hand to his lips again, kissed her fingers then sighed, looking at her. He picked up her dish with its piece of crust left and her yellow mug. He took them to the sink, looked out the window at the flowers and the bird feeder, then glanced back at Rosie, noticing her eyes narrowing as she looked around the kitchen, concentrating, studying it as if she was in a museum looking at a painting. Max reflected on how she loved to cook, remembered her delicious carrot cake, the stuffed mushrooms she made as appetizers when they had guests over and thought about how she hadn’t cooked for the last two years. Seeing the look on her face broke his heart, something that happened almost every day, and he wondered what would become of her as she faded further and further away from him and their life together. Max often remembered how passionate their dating became. They had been together every day, studying together, taking walks, picnics, rowing on the river, making love every chance they had. He remembered how they surprised their parents when they announced they had just gotten married in the rabbi’s office in the middle of the semester. The rabbi was reluctant, but then said, “Oh well,” after seeing how determined they were. They had a weekend honeymoon at The Light House Bed and Breakfast on Cape Cod. The professor, Dr. Lewellyn, took roll when they returned to class on Monday, cleared his throat when he came to her new name and everyone in the room applauded their reckless abandon. Finally, after the initial shock and disapproval, their parents met each other and held a celebration, inviting relatives and friends to a big party, the summer after Max and Rosie graduated. Max and Rosie were glad they hadn’t had a big expensive wedding. Max was twenty-two and Rosie was twenty and they had no idea what they were going to do to support themselves. For a while they worked as waiter and waitress at a small café, glad they could work together, but eventually, they went on to graduate school and lived in a tiny fourth-floor apartment, surviving on the small teaching fellowships they were awarded. Rosie got her Master’s degree in Theater, Max in English, and she taught drama at the local high school until Leah was born, while Max taught literature and creative writing at the Montgomery County Community College. Four years ago, the symptoms of Rosie’s illness became apparent. Max had wondered why she’d taped labels to all the drawers in the kitchen with the words silverware and on the cabinet doors, the words dishes, cups, glasses. This baffled him because all she had to do was look inside and she would know what was there. Then one day she called him on the phone and asked if he would come pick her up at the market. When he asked Escort içerenköy why she just didn’t drive her car home, she said she was tired and didn’t feel like driving. The next day, he drove her back to the market for her car and she followed him home. Soon, she stopped driving altogether and asked Max to drive her places and it became clear, she couldn’t remember how to get to where she wanted to go. When they went to see Dr. Goldstein, their family doctor, to determine what was going on, Max could see she was trying to hide her failing memory using her sense of humor. “What’s the name of the President?” Dr. Goldstein asked. Rosie looked at Max and then answered, “Obama. President Obama.” This was two days after he had been elected and they watched the celebration on television. Max and Rosie had talked about it during the drive to the doctor’s office, but when he asked her what day it was, she said, “What difference does it make?” Her deterioration was slow but the forgetfulness became more consistent until Max had to teach part-time at the college. The day she was found in the backyard of a house on the next block, trying to open the door, thinking it was her home, it became clear she could no longer be left alone. Max couldn’t afford to stop working completely or he would lose the full amount of his social security and they needed the health insurance the college provided. Still, he was in debt for the medicines they’d tried in an attempt to slow down the disease, realizing eventually, nothing would change the inevitable. “Let’s go for a walk,” Max said, coming over to the table. “Let’s go to the park and feed the ducks.” “Oh yes, the ducks, we haven’t fed them, have we?” she said, seeming to vaguely remember that they often took a walk before dinner. Max tore up some pieces of bread and placed them in a small paper bag. Rosie was still wearing her shawl and Max was wearing the blue wool sweater she had knitted for him ten years earlier. It was his favorite sweater. “That sweater looks nice on you,” she said, admiring it. “You made this sweater for me over ten years ago.” “I did? Well, I like how it looks on you. You look so handsome.” Max laughed because she always told him how nice he looked in the sweater. At the park, they sat on the bench where they sat every afternoon and threw pieces of bread to the ducks, watching them swim and swallow each offering. They laughed at the strange quacking sounds when the the ducks flapped their wings, then swam under water and then popped up. “I like it here,” Rosie said. “I do too,” Max said, wondering how long it would be before even feeding the ducks would be impossible. At first, Leah came and took care of her mother on Tuesdays and Thursdays while Max taught his classes, but then she went from part-time to full-time at the mental health clinic she worked at, so it became essential to get outside help. Leah had called several agencies and was turned off by their questions and attitude and knew her father would be turned off too. She asked her colleagues if they knew anyone, then one day the director told her that his neighbor’s sister was a nurse and had just arrived in town and was looking for work. Leah met Robin at the food co-op for coffee and was not only impressed with the woman’s credentials and experience, but liked her exuberance and sense of humor. She learned that they were both thirty-four. Robin had grown up on a farm in central Pennsylvania called Rainbow’s End, had been home-schooled, or rather unschooled, as she described it, and was accepted by the University of Pennsylvania Nursing School. After graduating, Robin worked at Mercy Hospital in Trenton, New Jersey but had just moved in with her sister after breaking up with the man she had been living with for two years. Leah enjoyed their conversation and thought Robin would bring some refreshing liveliness to the house and would be someone her father would enjoy talking to now that her mother was not able to have conversations of any substance. Robin was living at her sister’s house while looking for a place of her own, but Leah suddenly got the idea to rent her old room to Robin in exchange for her taking care of her mother and helping take care of the house. In addition to the room, she would get seventy-five dollars a week for personal expenses. Having Robin living at the house was a win-win situation because it would be less expensive for everyone and her father wasn’t the housekeeper her mother had been when she was well. Max was resistant at first. He liked his privacy and didn’t like the idea of someone else living in the house, but when he met Robin, he liked the way she looked at him with her blue eyes and her firm handshake. He noticed how she looked around the kitchen and seemed to be taking in everything at a glance. He loved how warmly she greeted Rosie as soon as she saw her, how she took her hand and gently rubbed her shoulder and how Rosie looked at her and smiled. He liked Robin’s gentle manner, how healthy and radiant she seemed and he consented to the arrangement for a trial period. Robin understood Max’s reluctance and assured him Tuzla escort she would respect his privacy, that she loved to read and was also a painter and would set up a studio in the bedroom if that was acceptable. “Dad, this will be good for you, you’ll see,” Leah said before leaving that afternoon. “My art supplies are being shipped and should be here in a few days,” Robin told Max after putting her things in the bedroom. She immediately went back into the kitchen and sat down next to Rosie who was staring out the window. Max watched Robin, admiring the way her light brown hair came just below her shoulders, but he also noticed her slender body, how her breasts strained her green T-shirt and how her snug black yoga pants clung to her round ass, causing him to swallow and stare, before looking away. Those pants are so tight. He looked up at the clock and saw it was almost four. “I was just going to make some tea. Rosie loves tea and rye toast with raspberry jam…would you like some?” “That would be lovely,” Robin said, glancing up at Max. “It’s our ritual.” “That’s important, having rituals like that.” “She has a favorite dish.” He held it up. “She likes the blue lily.” “Good. That’s sweet of you to make her toast and serve it on the dish she likes.” “She used to know who I was when I served it but she’s more confused now. I’m not sure if she really knows me.” “She’s aware of something, I’m sure. It’s hard to know what’s she’s thinking or remembering.” Max filled the kettle with water and got three mugs down. He opened the red breadbox next to the toaster-oven and took out several slices of rye bread. “I’ll just have tea. Just make the toast for her,” Robin said. “By the way, I love to cook. I could make both of you a nice dinner tonight, if you would like.” “Really?” Max said, placing the rye bread in the toaster. “That would be nice. I’m not sure what we have. Rosie doesn’t have much of an appetite and I usually open a can of soup or make a cheese sandwich.” “Well, she has to eat and so do you. Does she take supplements, you know, vitamins?” “Yes, and she loves oranges. I always have oranges.” After pouring the tea and bringing Rosie the toast with raspberry jam and placing Robin’s mug in front of her, he sat down next to Rosie. “Robin’s going to be living here and taking care of you,” Max said, touching his wife’s hand. Rosie looked at Robin then at Max. “That’s nice. Why is she here?” “To take care of you and help around the house.” “Oh, that will be nice.” Robin made a tuna casserole for dinner and they ate together, then just before she took Rosie to her bedroom to get her ready for bed, she said to Max, “Now don’t you do the dishes, just relax.” Max sat in the living room in his recliner reading the New Yorker, but was aware of Robin washing the dishes and humming while she put things away. She has a nice voice…this is strange having such a young woman living here. She’s nice…pretty, seems like a good nurse. Maybe this will work out. When she came into the living room, she sat down on the couch across from him. She was still wearing the same outfit, but took off her sandals and tucked her feet under her and looked around the room, then at Max. “This must be so hard for you.” Max looked up and nodded. “She’s really fading. She used to be so lively and funny. The funniest person I know. We used to listen to Jeopardy after dinner and she would have made a bundle if she had gone on that show…she was so quick. It’s really hard to see her like this.” “I can imagine. I know I took care of one man who had dementia and it was hard for his wife, but she got really impatient with him, like she was angry at him for losing his mind. She was sarcastic and said mean things that he must have heard.” “Really.” Max shook his head. “That’s terrible.” “They didn’t have a good marriage. Nothing like what you and Rosie have. Her name was Althea. She would turn on the TV in the morning and he sat there most of the day while she went around doing stuff. She went out a lot when I was there.” “I thought you worked at a hospital.” “I did but I got laid off when the hospital had to cut back and I got a job with this agency. I didn’t live-in, but I came in the morning and left after dinner. It was sad seeing him fade away and she seemed relieved when he finally died. She didn’t even cry when she saw me give the last shot of morphine then take away the oxygen.” Max listened, becoming more curious about Robin.“Leah told me you grew up on a farm and never went to school before getting accepted to nursing school.” “Right, I was lucky to grow up at Rainbow’s End. My sister Lark and I never went to school and my parents just let us play and learn what we wanted to. We had a lot of books in the house and we took care of the goats and chickens and helped in the big garden we shared with the other families who lived there. None of the kids on the farm attended school, but our friend, Tollie, got accepted to Harvard.” “Really, that’s interesting. Both Rosie and I were pushed to do well in school by our parents so that we would get scholarships, and we both got into prestigious colleges and we made sure Leah kept up with her studies. She graduated near the top of her class.” “I tried ninth grade in the local school for two months, but it was the biggest waste of time. It was all memorizing, so I left so that I could read and do things I was really interested in like painting. Then I took the SATs and got into nursing school.

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